October 2011
“You can’t lose something you never had.”
– How to lose a guy in 10 days (clever-lines)
Is it the right time?
Me and Maddi are sitting here talking about the future and I honestly told her straight up that I don’t want to be the rebound girl or the last resort. When the time is right and you truly feel in your heart that you want me as I am then that’s when I want things to happen. I think that high school relationships are joke. Unless you can truly truly truly tell that the couple is in...
Prom topic
This topic always happens when I am around the both of them:
Him: Kelly says she is only going if I ask her.
Me: No, I don't want to go at all.
Him: Kelly, why not?!
Me: Because I want you to go with someone pretty.
Both of them: Kelly, you are pretty.
Me: I want you to go with someone who you are not forced to go with. Someone who is gorgeous.
Him: I am talking to her.
That's it. My heart has been melted like a birthday candle.
Bang bang
Who the heck brangs a gun to a hi schol party? like wtf serioiitsly?! Wel that was a nightmarge I nnvr want to expirence agai. Going home and kocking ouh for the niighr.
Saying I love you
Yes I am aware that my title of this blog is lyrics from More Than Words by Extreme. But anyways I just wanted to say that I hate it when he tells me he loves me when it truly doesn’t have truthful meaning behind it. Like seriously please stop saying that you <3 me or love me. Just completely stop because obviously it’s not true. Well it is true but the way you love me isn’t...
Girls trying hard
All these girls having to fight for you when I just get to sit back and think “Ahh yes at the end of the day I am still his bestfriend.” I still get jealous though but at least I will always matter unlike these girls.
Can't get past these walls
So I have a major problem where I walk out the door sit in my mom’s car all ready to go to church and then just as I put the car in reverse I put it back in park get out and go back inside. I have no idea why I fear going to church lately but these are some of my assumptions. 1) a fear of running into people and they question me on why I they haven’t seen me in awhile. 2) I fear that I...
Lies and sick feelings in my tummy
I couldn’t do it. I had to go on twitter and Tumblr. Not Facebook though. But seriously now I screwed myself because my last tweet talked about people who subtweet and how immature I think it is. Even though my friends do it I still think it’s dumb. And now you are butt hurt about it. If I come to school tomorrow and you become all pissy at least I know wasn’t doing anything...
Banned
I am not going on any social networking sites starting tomorrow. I need some time away from those things. It’s almost like I am completely cut off from society now. No tv, cellphone, or social networking sites. The only things I have are my laptop for hw use only and my ipod for listening to music only. Its definitely going to be hard but I need to do this. So I guess the only way people are...
Everyone
Keeps wanting to make sure I am okay. Thanks for your concerns but here’s the thing you can only say and do so much for me. It’s on my shoulders if I want to make the bigger change and it doesn’t look like that is going to happen anytime soon.
But now everyone is showing concern and I don’t want to off turn them. But for right I need to learn how to stand on my own....
